I carried my basket into a garden filled with texts
Looking for the right words to say to you
I threw in love and laughter
Value, appreciation, loyalty and desire
Alas, my basket was overloaded
It gave way to the weight I had put upon it
Like the broken mirror I had been staring into all these years
Words spilled all over, reminding me of my shattered heart
So where do I begin now, I ponder
I tried to love a bird but all it wanted was to be free
I had to let it go
I pulled my golden fish out of water
Placed it in an aquarium filled with human kindness and all that I could provide
I wanted to wake up to him every day
And fall asleep to his beauty and grace
Watching him swim back and forth, with golden fins and a tail
But he stared at me with sad eyes
Until I released him back into the ocean from whence he came
I wanted him to feel a fire burning each time he saw me
To make love to me like there was no tomorrow
To love me with intensity and a passion that was ever burning
But it seemed like I was trying to get water out of a rock
To resurrect a dead pond in the middle of a dry desert
To wish for snow in a tropical rainforest
I wanted him to take me on a journey that would never end
On a boat that had only room for two
I wanted us to sail off into the sunset
Where we would be enough for each other
I have spoken too many words and now I am speechless
I planted a seed and I wanted to watch it grow
I will water it no more, less I drown it
I have put my message in a bottle
And let it float away
I will sit back and let it go where the current may lead it
Time to sit back and let life happen
For I am emotionally exhausted and lost for words
I have nothing else to say
I am speechless
©Nina Fabunmi
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