Half A Life

I tasted the flaccid only to remember how good the hard felt

Flaccid was  like acid , it burnt me , it was never good for me

I remembered sitting on something firm

I was grounded , I was whole

Going back to those hot sweaty nights

Falling asleep to humming mosquitoes

The broken silence of long nights

Yet two souls became one , our never ending story

We hurt each other

We suffer for our own lack of forgiveness

But we have suffered enough

My African Mandingo warrior

Oceans apart

And now, I have learnt to live half a life

Flower in a jungle of unworthy eyes

I blossomed but it was flawed with oblivious intent

I curled up once again, hiding behind the green leaves giving me shelter

I await the day he will swim the Atlantic, soar the skies and ride the black stallion

To reclaim me once more

Till then , I shall live half a life

Knife in my heart

Wife

Studs on my fingers

Life

Crown on my head

The fruits of my womb

Our bond

Returned to us

Our crown

But till then

Half a life

 

Copyright Nina Fabunmi 2017

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The Foolishness Of Love

When I think about you

I remember the foolishness of love

I build walls and you build bridges

You tear down my walls and you find me

I lock the doors and you come in through the window

I walk away and you run right after me

I can’t live with you and yet I can’t live without you

Like flesh on bones and skin on flesh

We have become inseparable

I have tried to set you free like a bird that needs to fly

But you always fly right back to me

I am writing poetry again because you have given me back my voice

I shut my eyes and still I see you

When I sleep, I dream about you

We kiss, we make – up and then we are at it again

Wallowing in our own foolishness

The foolishness of love

 

Copyright  Nina Fabunmi 2016

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I carried my basket into a garden filled with texts

Looking for the right words to say to you

I threw in love and laughter

Value, appreciation, loyalty and desire

Alas, my basket was overloaded

It gave way to the weight I had put upon it

Like the broken mirror I had been staring into all these years

Words spilled all over, reminding me of my shattered heart

So where do I begin now, I ponder

I tried to love a bird but all it wanted was to be free

I had to let it go

I pulled my golden fish out of water

Placed it in an aquarium filled with human kindness and all that I could provide

I wanted to wake up to him every day

And fall asleep to his beauty and grace

Watching him swim back and forth, with golden fins and a tail

But he stared at me with sad eyes

Until I released him back into the ocean from whence he came

I wanted him to feel a fire burning each time he saw me

To make love to me like there was no tomorrow

To love me with intensity and a passion that was ever burning

But it seemed like I was trying to get water out of a rock

To resurrect a dead pond in the middle of a dry desert

To wish for snow in a tropical rainforest

I wanted him to take me on a journey that would never end

On a boat that had only room for two

I wanted us to sail off into the sunset

Where we would be enough for each other

I have spoken too many words and now I am speechless

I planted a seed and I wanted to watch it grow

I will water it no more, less I drown it

I have put my message in a bottle

And let it float away

I will sit back and let it go where the current may lead it

Time to sit back and let life happen

For I am emotionally exhausted and lost for words

I have nothing else to say

I am speechless

 

©Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com