Embracing Seasons

Open Invitation by Nina Fabunmi 2009

Wool was warm in the winter but in the spring it melted to a sweaty pulp

And then it melted all off of me

The sun came and I embraced my nudity

But then came the winter again and I yearned for the warm softness of my woolen yarns

I got on a sail boat with a captain to steer the wheels

Many moons hath passed and we are still sailing in circles

With no destination in sight and now I have gone weary

Saved by a tsunami of emotions

Our sail boat hath sank to the bottom of the deep blue yonder

Rescued by my own mindless fantasies , I have become a mermaid

I am swimming free in an ocean filled with sharks

Singing like a siren that I may lure the unlikely

I have swam through muddy waters

To reach the clear blue continental shelves

One day I will have legs again

And I will walk out of these depths

They didn’t drown me but made me stronger

I will walk on new soil

And make new footprints

Branches will bend to give me shade

Flowers will bloom to the glory of my presence

And once more I will be ready to embrace another season

Embracing seasons……

 

©Nina Fabunmi 2017

 

 

 

 

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Forbidden

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Christianity brings sanity

Religion itself gives us control

Things we ought to say and do

Things we cannot say or do

They are forbidden

There are laws that have been laid down

Only to guide us

But can they really guide us?

For no matter how much guidance we get

We have been made to be free

For even Adam and Eve walked the earth in nudity

Free just like animals

And they are our parent’s parents

Truth is

We have unlimited freedom

That exists in our minds

That neither religion nor common law can restrict

It’s left to us now

To build its boundaries for ourselves

And that’s where religion comes in

To aid us in knowing our limits

But these limits are implicit

And can be superceded by the depth of our thinking

And we can tap into the forbidden

Even though it’s forbidden

Making it our own secret

The things we do that are forbidden

 

©Nina Fabunmi 2016

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

You Died

Open Invitation by Nina Fabunmi 2009

You died

You don’t exist anymore

I took all the pain and hurt you caused me

And I buried them along with you

I threw flowers into your grave

And wept over your lifeless corpse

And now, I am a widow in mourning

I kept all the happy memories

All our pretty pictures

They are like food to my soul

Just enough to help me get by

If I ever see you again, I will walk on by

And pretend that I just saw a ghost

Because you died

You are no more

Like an image in my head

A happy thought in my heart

And if you call my name again, I will not answer

I will pretend like it’s a whisper from the wind

And I will remember you with joy

Because you are dead

I buried you with your pain and heartache

I wet the soil with the tears I cried for you

I have planted a garden in your name

And I will remember you

Because you died

 

©Nina Fabunmi 2016

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

 

Despicable

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Weeds growing under the high buttresses of dense trees

But they are just weeds

They need to be cut down, plucked out, discarded of

So that the trees can breathe easy

Trash!!!!

Belongs in the garbage can

I picked it up, dusted it out and tried to recycle it

Over and over again

I put fragrances on it to hide its foul smell

But it was too intense to be disguised

Eventually, I had to put it right back in the garbage where it belonged

I thought about making a sacrificial basket to Yemaya

To drown the foolishness deep under the ocean

But I didn’t want the fish to perish

That’s how despicable

Couldn’t turn paper into plastic

Couldn’t scrub the stripes off the Zebra

Optimism hath become a synonym for idiocy

The weeds

I had to cut them down

That I may breathe easy

And like the tall thick trees with high buttresses

That I may grow easy

To the heights that nature hath intended for me

Embracing the sun, moon and sky

Flourishing in the new freedom that is me

Less I become a part of that which I find utterly despicable

 

©Nina Fabunmi 2016

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

Speechless

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I carried my basket into a garden filled with texts

Looking for the right words to say to you

I threw in love and laughter

Value, appreciation, loyalty and desire

Alas, my basket was overloaded

It gave way to the weight I had put upon it

Like the broken mirror I had been staring into all these years

Words spilled all over, reminding me of my shattered heart

So where do I begin now, I ponder

I tried to love a bird but all it wanted was to be free

I had to let it go

I pulled my golden fish out of water

Placed it in an aquarium filled with human kindness and all that I could provide

I wanted to wake up to him every day

And fall asleep to his beauty and grace

Watching him swim back and forth, with golden fins and a tail

But he stared at me with sad eyes

Until I released him back into the ocean from whence he came

I wanted him to feel a fire burning each time he saw me

To make love to me like there was no tomorrow

To love me with intensity and a passion that was ever burning

But it seemed like I was trying to get water out of a rock

To resurrect a dead pond in the middle of a dry desert

To wish for snow in a tropical rainforest

I wanted him to take me on a journey that would never end

On a boat that had only room for two

I wanted us to sail off into the sunset

Where we would be enough for each other

I have spoken too many words and now I am speechless

I planted a seed and I wanted to watch it grow

I will water it no more, less I drown it

I have put my message in a bottle

And let it float away

I will sit back and let it go where the current may lead it

Time to sit back and let life happen

For I am emotionally exhausted and lost for words

I have nothing else to say

I am speechless

 

©Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

Wild Fig Tree

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Wild fig tree

Roots so deep

Breaking through the boundaries of never ending depths

How still you burrow, further and further

The tree will ever stand so firm

I planted my heart like a seed in the ground

My offering unto you

It hath flourished into an ever-standing tree

With roots that travel forever

You water it with abundant love

The sun hath been generous with its shine

The moon hath guarded it my night

The rain-washed its eternal green leaves to a luster

The roots are so deep

Breaking through rocks

And smashing the worms that get in the way

Our love will last forever

Like a wild fig tree

With roots so deep

Travelling to infinity

The tree stands ever so firm

Like a wild fig tree

 

©Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

Love Is A Place That Exists In My Head

Bonding By Moonlight, By Nina Fabunmi, Oil on Canvas, 20x42, Sold Inches, 2001

Love is a place that exists in my head

We danced as Whitney sang “could I have this kiss forever”

And promised our lives to each other

We embraced and we cried

We held our unborn child and we made ourselves a family

She is so beautiful, look how she has grown

We nurtured her into puberty

And had many more children

In my head we have built castles

We sleep and we awake together

We watch the sunrise by dawn

And retreat as it sets at dusk

We kiss under the moonlight

And ride through the skies on stars

We sail on dolphins and fly on butterflies

Everything that tore us apart does not exist anymore

We are young and foolish

But above all, we are in an endless love

In a place that exists in my head

 

Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com