So swiftly so suddenly, I feel a surge of sadness
But yet it seemed, a moment ago, that all I had was happiness
My mind has began to wonder again
That which I ended I want to begin
And that which I began, I want to end
For it seems as though, I am coming to my end
I am weary of wallowing in my own confusion
I am sorry for those who once had my submission
For it seems I am as a pendulum rocks
Back and forth and breaking the rocks
That which once held me steadfast in love
I mend and I break and I mend and I break
Shattering the hearts of those I once loved
Loving again until I break
And breaking again yet wanting for their love
And when I have it, I break again
I break again only to begin again
Hearts are shattered and I am battered
Then again comes the surge
The fruit of all that I urge
The surge that makes me begin to purge
Wallowing in my self inflicted unhappiness
In a surge of sadness
©Nina Fabunmi 2016
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