It’s Like Madness

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Sadness

It’s like madness

I swallowed a pill called love

It flows through my veins

And has infected me with lethality

Crazy!!! I Feel like I have gone insane

Ashamed with no one to blame but me

How could I let this happen?

It’s like walking without walking

Like one without feet and yet I am moving

Other forces have befallen me

My tongue is wagging but I said not a word

And yet I have said so much

It’s an infinite source of inspiration

I can’t stop the words from flowing

Crying

But I shed not a tear

And yet I can’t hide my heavy eyes

Like an ache without diagnosis

How can I be cured?

I drowned myself in a bottle named love

And now, I am intoxicated

Calamity, its insanity

I have thrown myself to the ground

And banged my head against the wall

In my futile effort to shake it off

How do I rid myself of this torment?

Bruised, broken and battered

It’s like Madness

 

Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

 

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Our Perfect World

Waiting For Him

I have kept you in my dreams

Trapped in a world that only exists in my false reality

A place where I can share you with no other

And transient things are not a bother

I spend the nights in your arms

And I awake in your embrace

I have a script for everyday

It all goes according to plan

I have you in my thoughts

When I close my eyes you smile at me

You lift me up and swirl me around

You whisper sweet nothings and make me merry

In a world where all is perfect

Where unicorns fly and homes are like floating clouds

We are like gods and goddesses

Eternal, peaceful and beautiful

My slumber is deep

I dare not wake

Less I be compelled to face my harsh reality

Where my tears flow like waterfalls

And my heart has been battered to a pulp

I spend the days waiting for night to come

So I can fall deep into sleep

To be with you once more

In a place where unicorns fly

Where we float on clouds like gods and goddesses

Our perfect world

 

Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

I belong To No One

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Follow the breeze and catch my ashes

For all that I am is gone with the wind

I saw the fire burning and put my fingers in it

And now I have been burnt to embers

I looked back because I saw you once more

But like Lot’s defiant wife

I got turned into a pillar of salt

Like ashes to ashes and dust to dust

The storm hath carried me away

And sprinkled my essence all over the earth

How ever will you find me?

I belong to no one now

Our memories are like leaves on a tree

Once green and full of life

But they will turn orange and brown when autumn returns

And finally fall to the ground

So think of me as an apple on a tree

Or the new growth from a seed planted in the soil

When the stream flows, I will flow with it

And when the rivers unite with the ocean

They will take me to its depths

I have given myself back to my origins

I will nourish the land

I will bring forth new fruits

I will be no more

Belonging to no one

 

Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

I Gave Myself To Him

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He wined me, dined me, put me in a pan and baked me

He poured my blood into a cup and drank it

I sat across the table from him and watched him nibble at my feet

He ate my fingers and my toes

He tore out my heart and he ate it

He inserted a straw into my skull and sucked out my brains

I fed myself to him

All I ever wanted to do was satisfy him

I lay on his black silken sheets and I gave myself to him

That he may never lack

I gave it all to him

And when I was left without life in me

I gave my soul to him

But I was never enough for him

 

Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

 

 

 

 

 

 

I Will Love You From A Distance

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Our pictures are like pretty petals scattered all over the floor

Our memories are like stars that twinkle on a dark blue sky

You have walked all over our pretty petals and stained them with dirty feet

But when the sun goes down at dusk

Hiding all the days labor in a haze

Our stars still twinkle on a dark blue sky at night

I will love you from a distance

Because each time I come close, you burn me

I will make a portrait painting of you

And adorn you with attributes you don’t possess

I will hide your flaws and paint over the pain

And make you perfect in every way

I will gaze upon you in awe

And fall in love with you over and over again

I will make memories in my head

And ask for the mercy of the dark blue sky at night

So that the stars will always twinkle in approval

I will love you from a distance

 

Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

He Watched Me Bleed

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He called me his queen

And adorned my head with a crown made out of thorns

Flesh punctured and blood tricking down my garments

He watched me bleed

He sat me on a pedestal placed on quick sand

And stood beside me, watching as I sunk

Deep and fast, soon I was gone

He knocked on my door and I opened

He asked for my heart and I gave it

He strung it up, hung from the ceiling

And made a punching bag out of it

He cleaned out my organs and placed in a blender

Made a smoothie and drank it with gusto

And he watched as I bled

He made me a slave to his loving

Trapped like a I’m in a dungeon

Weak, unable to break the bars that hold me

Bleeding…….

At night he lays his head to rest but he cannot sleep

For when he closes his eyes in slumber he watches me bleed

He will roam the earth as a king without his queen

He will eat and never be filled

He will drink but his thirst will never quench

He will look for me but never find me

He will see nothing but he will see me

And he will watch me bleed

 

Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com

Bed Of Roses

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The Gecko on your wall

Soon to be gone

Only for the cockroaches to come in again

Here I lay waiting for you in a bed full of roses

You betrayed me and returned to me with a single pink rose

I cried in your arms

You comforted me

My love for you knows no bounds

I planted my single pink rose

It has born forth-new fruits

And now I lay in a bed full of roses

Still waiting for you while you run around with cockroaches

They shit all over you

Sting you with their stench

I have cried

I am still crying

My tears are nourishing my garden of roses

I lie amongst the thorns

I bleed as they rip my flesh

Still waiting for you

My blood nourishes the soil

Still waiting for you

Many have come with their valor

To rescue me from myself, still waiting for you

I gave you my heart

You turned it into a pincushion

Pierced it with many needles

I am weak and feeble

Bleeding till death

Lying in my bed of roses, still waiting for you

I have died and given you my soul

Buried in my bed of roses

Still waiting for you

Dancing around with cockroaches

They will kill you and return your soul to me

Bury you in my bed of roses

I will be waiting for you in the afterlife

Still waiting for you

In my bed of roses

 

Nina Fabunmi

http://www.ninafabunmi.com